New Years Resolution

2011 is going to be such an exciting year. Not only am i starting it off right with my best friend, but its a fresh start. After the year I've had.. a fresh start is exactly what I need. 

Gosh, there are so many things going on this year..

     I'm turning 21!! Going to Vegas!! So many friends are getting married!! Lots of traveling!! Brother is getting married to the most amazing girl!! and then I'm sure there will be plenty of unexpected things happen. Maybe i'll do a few crazy things, make some new friends, get good grades, laugh until it hurts, maybe even fall in love.. who knows. I just want to be happy and take chances. 

Inside Taylor Swift's new CD it says this..

     Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what i've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything. 

     I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say "I love you." When we should've said "Im sorry." When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

     Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

     What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest. 

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices "I could've, but it's to late now."

     There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it.  

I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now.

It's just completely perfect. And it's so true.. even if what I say is humiliating or embarrassing.. at least it won't be haunting me because I didn't open my mouth and just say what I felt. It's just so intense thinking about missing out on something perfect because I'm too scared to put myself out there. I don't want to be that girl. and I don't want to wait until the time has passed me by. It's so intimidating not being sure what other people are thinking or how they will react when you tell them what's on your mind.

"In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationship we were afraid to have and the decisions we waited too long to make."

confession-- a little too much wishful thinking lately..