Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Live Life to the Fullest.

Q. What do I want to do before I die?

A. Live life to the fullest.

I want to wake up and make the most of the time I'm given. I don't want to spend the rest of my life sitting in an office dreading my job. I want to create, explore, travel, laugh, love..

Every time I end up sharing some of my dreams and goals with people they always find it really random.. which I think is funny, because when you think about it.. everyone has some crazy goal that they are afraid to say out loud for fear that people will laugh about it or judge them on it. Well, I could care less haha.. so here it goes

CREATE- I love to write. So it only makes sense that since this is such a huge passion of mine, that two of my goals would have to do with writing. The first is to write a book and have it published by the time I'm 25.. and yes I've started the book. (currently having writers bloc). The second is to get my masters in Screenwriting. I'm a huge movie buff, and just the idea of being able to create scripts for movies.. straight up fascinates me. 

EXPLORE- I want to explore different aspects of life. I want to learn to surf. I want to dance in front of people. Do karaoke. Sing loudly in a crowded place, just because I can. I want to have pictures published in a magazine. (taken by me, not of me.) I want make someone's life better. I want to learn to snowboard. I want to learn how to eat salad without gagging. I want to rock climb ALL the time. I want to be completely fearless. 

TRAVEL- I've been to a bunch of places, but traveling is my life. I love it. I want to travel to random places.. learn about different cultures, make friends, eat weird food, but most importantly help others. I mean why not ya know?

LAUGH- If you know me or are around me enough, you'll know that I laugh 85% of the time.. and I love to make people laugh 100% of the time. It's the best medicine. Seriously. I definitely know how to be serious when the time is right, but laughing is my favorite thing to do. It makes me happy. 

LOVE- I want to love with my whole heart. Not only my friends, my job, my family, my life.. but that one special person that I have yet to find. I want to jump when the time is right. I don't want to hold myself back from something that could be exactly what I need. I want to trust someone with my life. I want to wake up every morning with a smile on my face and know that I'm secure.. and its actually right this time. 

I love being spontaneous and fearless (if you couldn't tell from my blog title). Why not get up and doing something spontaneous RIGHT THIS SECOND. WHY NOT?

So I definitely think everyone should reevaluate their life.. If you aren't happy.. Change it. There is no time for negativity. 

"You only live once, and if you do it right, once is enough."

P.S.-- I've decided that on every post, I will confess something, even if it's stupid, funny, lame, or weird..

Confession-- I hate peas.

Monday, November 29, 2010


I know God is going to get me through this pain. There is ALWAYS hope beyond your hurt. Isn't it funny how we always find ourselves saying "what a coincidence."? Tonight I was talking to a friend about how things happen and we say it's just a coincidence.. but in all reality.. It's actually God providing for us. So the next time you think something is a coincidence.. Take a minute to think about it. I have just a few short weeks of school left, and lately I have found myself being upset with the fact that this Christmas will be different than all the previous ones, but then i remembered how blessed i am to have to world's greatest friends. We are already planning our whole break and  i am just so thankful that I was able to find friends that are supportive, hilarious, genuine, avid coffee drinkers, amazing and most of all love me for me. I know God will always provide for me even in my times of trouble. That gives me such an incredible peace.

"And He never promised the cross would not get heavy and the hill would not be hard to climb
He never offered victory without fighting but He said help would always come in time
Just remember when you’re standing in the valley of decision and the adversary says give in
Just hold on, our Lord will show up and He will take you through the fire again"

Love God. Love my life. Love my family and friends. It's all about the love peeps.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving!!! I have soo much to be thankful for this year. My brother and future sister in law are home from Iraq, All my family is safe, I have two really cute dogs, the most amazing friends i could ever ask for, and food on the table. I am soo beyond blessed. Make sure you enjoy your time with family, because you never know if that will be the last time to see them. This year, i've really learned not to complain about petty issues. This week, my rents told me my whole Thanksgiving break would be spent at Grandma's house and instead of getting upset that I wouldn't see my friends, i remembered that I hadn't seen my family in over a year. I have an awesome family and some pretty cool cousins, so what better way to spend my break. I hope everyone has a great day! I'm still trying to figure out if the $2 movies at Walmart are worth getting up at 3am and dealing with the crazies and their carts. haha.

Happy Turkey Day!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Friends and Enemies.

     I am finally in a really good place in my life. I have found some amazing friends. I haven't had friends like this in a long time.. since my junior year in high school. They have taught me so much and have been there for me when i didn't think I deserved it. I love my degree and the future that is going to come because of that degree. BUT.. (there's always a "but") Why is it that people try to destroy that happiness? that fresh start that you've finally been given? I recently found out.. that someone took it upon themselves to tell people that used to be in my life.. everything that has happened in the past 6 months.. mainly the bad things that i wish to not remember. So not only do i feel like I'm being blackmailed.. I feel like some people will never grow up.. That some people will NEVER stop the drama. But why does it bother me? I mean.. I know i have the right to be angry about someone starting crap about me.. but why can't I just brush it off? I guess it's because for the past 3 years, all i've down is constantly defend myself. It's an understatement when people say "haters will hate" because i have known some people that just want to destroy me. I thought I left that mess back in Tulsa when I moved away to school.. but I guess i was wrong. I'm just going to keep living my life and hope one day it won't bother me as much. As for my friends.. i love them very much. I don't think they know how much they mean to me. It's almost Thanksgiving.. and i have so much to be thankful for. I really do love my life. I'm so blessed.